*Um, so Colton how's it going? Um, it's been a while since we last met. Did you, uh, work on your anger exercises that I suggested. I hope you did, 'cause I'm concerned about your lack of progress. It's a shame to see such a young man be so stressed. Um, but anyway, tell me about your week. Are you doing okay? Colton? You gotta help me help you. You doing okay? What do you got to say?*
Imagine the image that was burned in my mind
While I was staring into my mother's lifeless eyes
Gripping her hand so tight, tryna hold on
Begging her not to go, mama please be strong!
But it wasn't her decision, she had no choice
All I wanted was a chance to hear the sound of her voice
But you wouldn't understand what the f*** it was like
To stare blankly at the Angel who gave you life
As she's fighting the fight, not a thing you can do
You can barely even stomach being in the same room
But you know you gotta be there for moral support
'Cause she was young when she had you but she didn't abort (Oh my)
Always been her biggest fan and you love her to pieces
But the cancer's got you thinking maybe there ain't a Jesus
You put it all aside 'cause it ain't about you
Now it's time to be a man so what the f*** would you do (idk, idk)
Knelt down slow and grabbed her by the hand I said mama I love you, I don't want you to go
But I know it's in His plans and I know that I'll grow
Into a man that'll always try to make you proud
And I'm sorry for all the time I let you down
You're amazing pretty lady, don't you ever forget it
Save me a seat up there, someday I'll get to be in it
*Well, you're right. I can't relate. I've never been through that.*
Then I had to let her go, she took her last breath
And I watched my mother's soul rise out of her chest
So now can you imagine the s*** I've been through
That's what I thought, let me know when it happens to you
But I thank God for granting me that moment of clarity
And showing me I don't need nobody to carry me
I'll walk the path alone on my own two feet
Until I make it to the gates and we can finally meet
But don't be confused by my scripture tattoos
I'm a God-fearing man but I got nothing to lose
So you better pray you're not there the day that I blow
'Cause this anger and hate in me has steadily grown
Just a little bit colder and a lot more bolder
I'm itching to ease the pain of this chip on my shoulder
So I'm begging you please come test me I dare you
(Okay calm down, calm down now)
But don't be confused when I erupt in hysterics
I won't spare you, I swear to you you're nothing to me
I don't need your little mind games or s***ty psychology
(Agh, well I..)
Don't even bother, it's too late for apologies
My future is in the stars if you believe in astrology
Read it and weep, I'm a lost cause plain to see
The fallen angel's gotten his grimy hands on me
I'm fighting a losing battle with an army of one
So how does that sound, you think my exercises are done?
*Well then, um... I think we're gonna need to go ahead and schedule another appointment for you. Um... wow. Wow.*
