Dear God, take me away
Take me away to a far away place
A far away place where my mind won't race
A place to escape all the anger and hate inside
I gotta get by, I know my mom's up there seeing me cry
She don't know why, she just want me to fly
I swear to God I'ma try to fly 'til I die
Just 15, I was rolling, smoking potent
Blowing O's I was lonely
So I moved slow motion
Pouring purple potion in a styrofoam cup
Later on when I got a little grown up
Long-lost father finally showed up
So what, I slammed that door shut,
F*** that bulls***, feel like I'ma throw up
But I roll up, take it to the dome
And I'd get so stoned can't feel my toes up
Take a nap 'til I'm happy again
Would've been nice if I had me a friend
Tough tits all I had was a pad and a pen
Writing this 'til I passed out again
Dear God, take me away
Take me away to a far away place
A far away place where my mind won't race
A place to escape all the anger and hate inside
I gotta get by, I know my mom's up there seeing me cry
She don't know why, she just want me to fly
I swear to God I'ma try to fly 'til I die
Picture me at 16, borderline suicidal
By 18 couldn't sleep without a knife and a Bible
Right beside me
On the nightstand with a bottle of whiskey
It always seemed to be empty
And if it wasn't then I turned the bottom up
And put the whole fifth in me swiftly
Drowning the evil that lives within me
Pounding inside my head attempting to tempt me
I wish I could live simply
But this sin is so tempting
And I'm ashamed to say
When I look in the mirror, all I see is the face of pain
Long-lost innocence fades away
Scratch that, straight black, no shades of gray
And I try to justify the mistakes I've made by saying hey
At least I'm getting paid or it's not my fault, I was made this way
Bulls*** that's a cop-out call me on it
And if you can hear me I'm saying I'm sorry mama
For all the times that I led you to believe I was clean when I wasn't
But f*** it I'm sick to my stomach
Sick of hearing a single drip drop in the bucket
Sick of trying to tell myself my cup runneth over
Sick of this f***ing chip on my shoulder
I gotta get it off, gotta get gone
Gotta stop sleeping with the lights still on
I gotta embrace the pain, embrace the shame
And stop letting dark thoughts penetrate my brain
Dear God, take me away
Take me away to a far away place
A far away place where my mind won't race
A place to escape all the anger and hate inside
I gotta get by, I know my mom's up there seeing me cry
She don't know why, she just want me to fly
I swear to God I'ma try to fly 'til I die
